I am wondering what to do. I am kind of in a strange and lonely place and the only outlet is through writing. Blogging seemed the safest option today as I do not want it in a traditional diary. Hope that all makes sense

I am currently in counselling for events that happened in my childhood. Apparently Iam at the worst point in it. Well, hooray, because it hasn't been bad already!!! I am on anti depressants and pushing myself to be normal even though it is the last thing in the world Im or indeed are anywhere close.

So, what am I going to do? I am supposed to be seeing an old friend tomorrow but want to put her off and als oanother friend on monday. I just want to remain here by myself where things are okay and I know what is going on. Now I sound like a total mad woman, maybe I am, maybe not

I have tried it elsewhere and failed miserably, so Ithought this is it, my last go at a blog.
What is it for? Well, I have a need to talk about me and what is going on with me. There is a lot to tell.
I have often thought about trying to write about my life, never got around to it, but there is a lot to tell.
So, will here be the place? Who knows, I guess I am just going to see how it all goes and what comes out organically rather than thinking about it.

So a blog to me is another offshoot of how reliant Iam now on computers and more particularly my laptop. It is like a friend. Whatever did I do without it? We have only been together for two years and yet it sometimes feels like my most important relationship.

Treat a blog like a friend, I have been told. Hope not, I don't really tell my friends anything. What I hope this may be is a nother helpful ear in my long road through this latest patch in my life ( I will explain in more detail another time)

Enough for now?
Maybe, or maybe there will be more later